Ohh......Insecurity

So this past weekend I attended the Beth Moore conference with my amazing girls and it was on all women's number one nemesis.....being insecure. Every female in this world is insecure in some way shape or form. I could be here all day listing my insecurities, but I won't do that. I simply want to share with you some amazing truths. God revealed so much to me on Saturday and my brain is still breaking it all down. All I have to say is that when He speaks to you He speaks to you. He continued to break my heart all weekend, even after hearing Sunday's message, but I can't go there right now. This weekend I learned that I have got to "try" and learn to stay in the new me. It is so easy for me to slip into the old me and I will literally do it in an instant.

Isaiah 43:18 Remember not the former things nor consider the things of old.

I think that we all daily slip into our old selves. It seems almost impossible to not to. The enemy is constantly waiting to get his hands on us. Beth said that Jesus is our security and we have to be intentional. If we think that things are going to just fall into place and go our way without including Him we have another thing coming. Insecurity lies within our minds and our minds are a scary place. I am DAILY guilty of taking a thought and then this tiny thought becomes this horrific nightmare. We have got to learn to control our minds and keep them from controlling us. I truly believe that worrying only makes us sick. There is absolutely nothing that comes out of our of worrying except that it makes us scared, vulnerable, and physically ill at times. I feel like this blog needs to be a be continued.

Below are a few of the things that I took away:

• You have nothing to gain from insecurity!!! It will not improve anything!
• Insecurity is not a weakness it is unbelief.
• The more we live withdrawn the darker our thinking gets and our hearts get harder and harder. This leads to addiction, whether it be food, alcohol, shopping, or drugs. An addiction is anything that draws us away from God and keeps us from him.
• Perfectionism is insecurity in an art form.
• How much does our continuous unforgiveness have to do with our insecurity?
• How much do we take God up on his grace?
• We need to forgive like women who have been graced. We can give grace away and also keep it. It is our right and freedom to forgive.
  
• To be secure, we have to know that somebody unfailingly loves us. You can't out sin his forgiveness.

So as I was writing this entry, Alli Rogers came on and I absolutely adore her voice and heart. This is my favorite song and it totally spoke to me today. Here are the lyrics. Find it and listen to it :)

I guess I need to choose
But today I am confused and losing ground
Is this part of some plan?
The rise and fall of man?
I can’t be sure

When I’m away from my source of peace
Something fills that space in me
And it feels like I don’t need you

It’s easy to get by
When I don’t even try to find the truth
Today I learned that faith
Is not to be obtained like a place I can go

It’s more of a choice than a feeling
More of a wound than healing
The act of believing in you

And I guess I need to choose
But today I am confused
And losing ground

But maybe this is where I grow
When I admit that I don’t know
When belief becomes the only way to you

I apologize for being all over the place on this one:)